Reflections 3/10/2010: This is how my body feels right now! Trashed from the allergic reaction with bumps, scars, scabs and itchy sores all over it! Main event over, but lots of residual damage! The meds are keeping the itching at bay (mostly), but I don’t think I have successfully purged the actual allergen from my body yet! I can mask the effects, but  it is waiting in the wings for the meds to fail. I’m limiting the “loopy” meds for the nights since it shuts me down TOOOO much during the day. And the daytime anti-anxiety drug just skims off the surface of the tension to itch. Doable… but I need to VANQUISH this allergen completely from my body to move on with my healing! But this has gotten me thinking about other destructive things in my life that I can successfully mask, but haven’t eradicated. Hmmm… maybe just tolerating a person I haven’t fully forgiven? Or feigning a servant’s heart when I am fiercely protecting my time? Or… well the list could go on and on! So God, let’s do a total Spring cleaning on my body and soul so meds and facades aren’t needed to mask the hurtful allergens and attitudes!