Reflections 3/31/2020: Well, I’m at another decision crossroad. My cancer surgeon didn’t like the doxorubicin chemo med that my oncologist settled for when I had such a horrible allergic reaction to the first round choice of taxol. Says it is slower and not as effective in killing the cancer. He recommended a different form of taxol that he swears circumvents that kind of allergic reaction. (He didn’t see the head to toe hives that plagued me for weeks and had my oncologist writing my eulogy!) Soooo , my choice is stay the course with a less effective treatment, or risk trying a different concoction of that hideous drug that will attack the cancer cells more powerfully. A true “pick your poison” decision! Dang! Ed and I decided to risk another allergic reaction for better results. Needless to say, your prayers are requested tomorrow (Wednesday) morning and in the following days, since the allergic itching started a few days later last time. Ahhhh!!! (I might become a morphine addict if it does.) One thing I won’t miss though is the constant nausea the doxorubicin seemed to cause. Spent 3 hours last night laying on a hard floor to help burb up noxious gases that my stomach decided to mass produce! (Made the local gas and electric company look like small potatoes!) A few trips to the toilet didn’t even slow the production down! Thanks stomach! God, this cancer “adventure” is grueling. I am learning a lot, but the price tag on the courses  I am forced to enroll in is outrageous! So I am taking out a forgivable student loan from Heaven’s S & L. Courage. Tenacity. Grace. And Trust.The