Reflections 3/6/2020: This was pretty reflective of my ADD prayer life before chemotherapy, but now the letters barely hang on the board! How thankful I am that You, God, can translate the gibberish of my pinball mind into honest prayer! And know my heart when words fail completely! Sigh. Sooo freeing just be able to myself in Your Presence! I think I write this Reflections blog just to show myself that my mind IS CAPABLE of stringing a coherent thought together when I need to! (And I secretly have a Ghost Writer helping me out in Your indwelling Holy Ghost!) Funny but music helps me pray. Sometimes the lyrics are exactly what I am thinking, so I sing along as a coherent prayer! And reading my friends’ words of prayer allows me to claim the supplication as my own! So THANK YOU ALL for precious prayers that call my scattered mind into alignment with your wonderful words! Chemo brain is real. I am having trouble differentiating my dreams from what is really happening around me, so like Russel Crowe in “A Beautiful Mind,” I might have to ask you if such-and-such is real, or only a figment of my imagination! Don’t commit me to an institution, it is a passing phase of chemo brain! Kinda fun though! Like a trip through Wonderland… nothing to do but go with the flow of it!