Reflections 5/1/2020: Boy has this described my choices of late regarding food… and even worse, coffee! If I eat food or drink my beloved brew, I am hurling it within the hour! BUT if I don’t eat food or drink my brew, I am hurling from hunger and a huge caffeine headache! “Damned if I do. Damned if I don’t!” Tried to make it through the night without my coffee fix at 4:00 pm and paid the piper all night with a head splitter! Between my wool cap, my sleep mask and my ice pack perched on my bald head, I was a sight to behold! I’m sure the nurses think I should be in the mental health unit! Finally gave I up and sucked down some coffee at 2:00 in the morning. Not exactly what promotes a good night’s sleep, but DID relieve the headache. Thank You Jesus! Word on the street is that they will release me today, unless they deem me mentally unfit! (A real possibility!) I know all of this will someday just be a fleeting memory, but it sure is an uphill climb right now! Grueling! Sooo God, let’s not waste the pain. Show me how to wring the most meaning out of this formidable stretch of time in my life. Why waste such an impressionable experience? I say, caffeine up Lynette, and if I hurl, I hurl! (Like Esther’s “if I perish, I perish!”, except not as consequential!)