Reflections 2/19/2020: Yesterday my old Bible study class of special need adults surprised me with their handmade “Get Well” cards. So touching!!! I felt sooo loved! Thank you guys… just what I needed! Took me a while to decipher their various “handwriting” but knowing each of them helped me to ferret out what they were likely trying to say to me. Love their blunt honesty. “I don’t want you to die and leave me.” (Not my intent… but cancer can sure be a duck shoot.) God, this is hard enough for me to grapple with, but losses impact them at whole different levels. They’ve had to say goodbye to too many friends since the death rate is so much higher in their disabled world. I want to reassure them by showing up at Stepping Stone as often as possible, but between nausea, full body hives, waning energy, doctors’ appointments and long hours in the infusion center, even that is getting pretty sketchy. Please guard their precious hearts through this unwanted journey, and most of all, may they find You to be an even more loving and present Friend as a result of this trek… regardless of the outcome! 

 By the way, hives are less itchy today but now they have staked their claim to my face as well.) Hello Quasimodo! Maybe widespread shingles? Doc was baffled yesterday. Supposed to get my second chemo infusion today but they need to decide if the allergic reaction was due to the specific kind of chemo, that could be changed, or something else which allows them stay the planned course. As always, your prayers are deeply appreciated!