Reflections 2/17/2020: WOW! Some months ago, (pre-cancer diagnosis), I reflected that one of my desires for the next year was to reach out to my female friends and actually be the one to initiate gatherings together. (Not the forte of a self-sufficient hermit!) Little did I know, God, that You would use this unexpected illness to invade my solitary world with sooo much feminine love! Yesterday afternoon, a tribe of my Bible study women (and besties from many years past), descended on my kitchen with estrogen-packed pistols! I was barraged with Wonder Woman costumes, coconut water, paleo cookbooks, vibrant flowers, tear-jerking cards, and even a song about allowing them to be servants to me sung a cappella!!! The best part was just being together again! Hearing how Theresa’s 4th grader was now an international college student in Australia! And how Megan’s debilitating migraines had been left in the dust of incredible scholastic successes despite the discouraging forecasts of previous years. And how difficult it was to usher our parents out of this world into the next. Something deep inside of me opened up to this onslaught of love.🥴 Going it alone isn’t all it’s cracked up to be! I need my female friends! Thank you all for teaching me that anew! I HATE my neediness, but You are using it to expand my soul in ways I never even considered estrogenically possible