Reflections: October 17, 2020
Reflections 10/17/2020: God, thank You for Sarah Young’s thoughts shared in “Jesus Calling.” I love how she writes from Your perspective, Your heart. It would seem presumptuous, except as I run the words through the grid of the promises in Your Word, they ring absolutely true! And how true is this?! “Anxiety is the result of envisioning the future without Me.” Holy smokes! How simple is that?! Not always simple to do, (envisioning You), but when implemented, it is a simple antidote for anxiety. “Include Me.” Physiology is a factor for sure. But once the biochemistry has been courageously addressed, the mental piece of including You can bring unexplainable Peace. For me, that Peace isn’t so much a factor of expecting everything to go perfectly in that impending future, but rather that I don’t go it alone. Or without rhyme and reason for the things that happen to me under Your sovereign and loving control. Got my cancer tumor markers score back yesterday and they had gone up. Slightly (1.5 points), but nonetheless up. So this anti-anxiety prescription is very relevant for me right now. And I choose to envision You in whatever my future holds.
Reflections October 16, 2020
Reflections 10/16/2020: We live along a street where people routinely walk their dogs. I love to sit outside and watch the dynamics of the dogs and their masters. Almost all of the dogs glance up at their human every few steps as they make their way along the street. Not sure if this is a gesture hopeful for affirmation, or an acknowledgment of their master being just that, their master… the one to guide,direct and protect them. Some breeds seem more needy of this constant reconnection, but surprisingly, even the more independent breeds develop this ‘check-in’ often routine. Roo has NOT shown much propensity for this yet. His puppy curiosity, self-assurance and adolescent cockiness makes him almost oblivious to my presence! “Mom, don’t cramp my style!” So yesterday’s adventure was a wake-up call! We ventured out on our maiden voyage to the nearby 60 acre dog-off-leash park. “What? No restraint?” At first he was enthralled by his new-found freedom! Bushes to explore without a leash to tangle him, or an annoying mommy to curb his efforts! But as he began to encounter many other dogs, also unrestrained, he realized the world wasn’t as safe a place as he reckoned! Mommy became more important to him… his source of protection, guidance and reassurance. Roo began the frequent head tilt I have been waiting for! God, how that reminds me of my Freshman year in college, off-leash for the first time! Exposed, influences from all directions, black ice slipperiness! Luckily my love relationship with You had already begun to take root, so I had discovered the comfort of that frequent glance in Your direction. Protection. Guidance. Reassurance. Still employ that frequent head tilt to this day. I hope that blesses Your heart as much as Roo’s burgeoning tilt does mine!
